I'm very thankful for the supportive and wonderful dears who had sent their condolences on this previously unedited version of a journal and since it would've been like copy-paste if I had responded one by one, I figured I might as well update this with my thanks instead.
So thank you! For being so kind and patient!
Regardless, it's kinda depressing in the house at the moment, but we'll see what happens.
All stuff will be paused until I get back in a few days.